Making Sense In a Senseless World Part 2

In keeping with the spirit of Random Thoughts, I thought I'd address again the subject of making sense out of a senseless world. I considered going to medical school since it doesn't make a whole lot of sense. I'm so old now that I'd never be able to retire because I'd have to pay my medical education debts. Plus, I don't have any medical experience, although it wouldn't be hard for me to volunteer at a hospital. Further, I'd have to leave my aging and disabled parents. That makes no sense at all.

The world in general makes no sense. I think the best way to live is to stop trying to make sense of it. Just do whatever you want to do. Don't bother if what you want to do is logical or even possible regarding your means. I'm so far in debt from working (see the irony?) in Washington, DC I don't know how I'm going to pay for law school. Yet I applied anyway. The way the system works, something weird will happen that will let you do what you want.

Now my big problem is figuring out exactly what I want out of life. For a long time I thought I wanted a Ph.D. in physics. At this point, I'm so far removed from the admissions process I don't think it's worth the trouble. Still, the fact it's illogical to go for a Ph.D. in physics makes this choice a good candidate for something for me to try.

I thought that I just wanted a job where I could use my science training and education. I got what I wanted, a job as a Patent Examiner. That job was horrible, so perhaps working in science in general is horrible. Thus I'm trying law for starters. Patent examination requires applying science and engineering to the law (or the other way around). None of these things I'm mentioning I'm really taking seriously anymore.

As far as decision making, you might as well take 10 strips of paper, one for every choice you have, and put them in a hat. Pull out one strip of paper and do whatever it is on that strip of paper. Life is definitely a random process. Why kid ourselves into thinking we really have any control over our lives. You could get killed in a car accident after reading this post for example.

Just for the record, here are the different occupations I've pursued over the years:
(1) Roman Catholic Priest
(2) Patent Examiner
(3) Scientist/Professor of Physics
(4) High School Teacher
(5) Mathematician
(6) Theologian
(7) Electrical Engineer
(8) Lawyer
(9) Doctor
(10) Sailor
(11) Soldier
(12) Writer
(13) Tutor
(14) Software Engineer
(15) Biologist
(16) Forensic Scientist

I've tried a lot of different things, but unlike most people I didn't stick to anything very long. In most of these occupations, I didn't get very far. Either I left, was forced out, or never allowed to enter. Currently, I'm pursuing a career as a writer. I'd like to work somewhere part-time that would allow me to still have time for my writing. That way I'd have income when I don't have publications. Still, that makes too much sense.