Making Sense In A Senseless World

I'll try to be more regular with this blog. This is my random thought blog. Today, I was just thinking that my problem is I try to make sense from a world that makes no sense. Just read Ecclesiastes 9:11. I applied for law school pretty much for no good reason other than I have all my credentials necessary for applying.

Here's what doesn't make a whole lot of sense. For 15 years or 7 years, depending how far I count back, I've been waiting to work full-time in a real professional job. Finally I got my chance last July 2008 with the United States Patent and Trademark Office. I worked as a Patent Examiner.

However, the job was evil. It was Burger King for geniuses. The management rushed us Patent Examiners much like the management of a fast food restaurant. Our products were patent applications. Also, the longer I stayed in the Washington, DC area the more in debt I fell.

While on SSI disability I had modest debt, but by the time I quit USPTO, my debt had grown 300%! Where does that make any sense? Again I'm trying to make sense out of a senseless world. So now, I'm making my way in the world as a freelance writer. I feel much happier at the choice I've made. Working for somebody else doesn't work for me.

At one point, I decided to be Random Man. I was going to apply for jobs and postgraduate education indiscriminately. I was even going to return to DC as some sort of federal employee. My parents didn't understand why I came back to Nevada, just to leave again. Since the universe doesn't make sense, then I don't have to make sense.

I did do a logical analysis of my options. The best option is to write as a freelancer, and the worst is to look for any old job in Las Vegas. I have a mathematical system I use to make decisions. My mathematical analysis gave me some direction and restored a little order to the universe.